i had previously signed up in this product line where you have to purchase 100 $ worth of their product each month and the seller obviously gets commision on that..Currently because of my financial situation, i chose to cancel this membership. The seller found out about it and was surprised and somewhat agressive in her approach, based on what I perceived to be true.
I felt hurt and I felt that someone was just here to use me to their advantage and I didn't like that, so I reacted to that situation.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to feel hurt, embarassed and betrayed by this situation.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to experience moments of anger at the person
I forgive myself for allowing myself to think that I am better off isolating myself from everyone because of that
person
I forgive myself for allowing myself to experience sadness in me because I feel that this world is nothing but a mean world where people are just using one another for their advantage.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to feel that I should just ignore people and try to seek friendships in other people , ie looking for separation beyond.
I realize now that I feel much more supported at work with my coworkers than with others in the social circle I am in.
I realize that what I Was seeking was just a form of separation from me, which was noted in seeking for other relationships or friendships that I sought but just never found. I now realize that those moment I Spend at work talking to certain coworkers and expressing who I am and what I want in the moment and feeling myself is what I always longed for and that I was living it but not realizing it because I Was seeking something outside of me. AS from now, I will learn to appreciate all those moments and talks with my coworkers and be in the moment, as opposed to seeking out friendships that are out there somewhere but not inside.
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